March 20, 2014
October 19, 2013
This year has been so crazy ups and downs all around. I found out I was pregnant in March and in May found out I had miscarried.. then miscarried again not even a month later. It has been a hard year. Still wanting a baby but not sure if it is the right time.
We will be tying the know next year so that is something for me to look forward to. My son has started school and is doing so well that I just want to burst with excitement about it but I don't want to make other people feel like I am better then them. My mind is all over the place.
March 15, 2013
UPDATE on my mom: she is doing better. She says that the couple of days after the treatment is the worse than after she starts to feel better. She has been eating good which makes me happy. :) She also has been sewing away!
March 7, 2013
So tonight I went to call my mom about how to cook sausage, hoping she would answer. Knowing she wasn't feeling well today, she did not answer. So I Googled it. As I am in bed thinking what it would feel like if I was unfortunate to have lost her. I would not be able to call her and ask her how to do something or get advice about something. I thank God he did not take her. I don't like her being so far away. It makes me anxious when I think about it. I know I will be the first person chuck calls if anything was to happen. But it scares me that I can't be there for her. And I know my sisters and brothers are the same way as they are further away than I am.
I love you mom. Stay strong.
March 4, 2013
She has been doing good. I would like to thank all the prayer warriors that came together in my mom's time of need. I thank the Lord every day for not letting me be without my mom for a little bit longer. She is my best friend, my hero. she helps me through things and doesn't think about herself when I need help. I am proud to be just like her. I am running (or gonna try to) in this run for her, not for me.
Today she starts her first round of chemo as a precaution as there were microscopic evidence, in the part of lung they removed, of cancer. Getting chemo will allow her to live longer. She is so scared to death and I am scared of what it is going to do to her. It really hasn't hit me yet that it is today. I can't go and be there with her because of work, I babysit, I don't wand to stress her out more than she will already be. And my sister who lives six hours away is struggling with being so far away.
UPDATE: I will be able to go see my mom in a little bit. Now I'm getting nervous.